Take A Walk With Me
Book of Poems
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Forbidden Fruit
Frozen in your icy gaze of begging the answering of your crazy questions, that are not even there. The answer float to the forefront of My Mind. You or Me? I can not choose me for the secret that I keep. I has never been me. It will always been you with every crack in my heart you make. Every tear sliding down my already scarred body you create, I will always choose you. Your every touch and "Please Don’t Leave" whispered with into your sleep melts me into forgotten memories. What do you do to me? What happened to the woman I use to be? It will always be you! Begging to be picked from the tree.You are my forbidden fruit.
With every bite I take my world implodes and I starts New on a road once again to choose you.
Get Lost
I wanna get lost in a green abyss.
Where the trees reach high into the sky.
Where the Rivers and Creeks dance to the beat.
Where The waters sing me a lullaby every night.
and the birds sing along with every step I take.
To a place I do not know.
To A place I can call home.
I wanna get lost in the green abyss.
A place where my heart is free.
I want to get lost within me.
We Rock Hard
The Lights and Bells ring bright as we walk towards those tables of hope..
Hard beating fast, with Eyes sparkling as if made of glass.
Dollar after Dollar entered until the machine eats our last.
Laughing at the cards spread across that green felt
As the coins clink on his makeshift belt.
The smell rises out of the cracked car windows, Oh, the smell of everlasting,
Headed to that home we call our own.
Empty pockets, tired eyes, and fog the only thing in sight.
Questions swirling through our minds as the road ends & The closed eyes adventure begins.
The Woman on the Bus
Dear the Woman on the Bus,
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I really wish I could explain to you how much it meant to meeting you today. You probably don't know & never will but that's okay. That tiny splash of perfume, With the swan imprinted on the bottle, that smell you share in excitement because it was new to you, That meant the world to me. To the woman on the bus,
I never even thought to get your name during our exchange. The true is I'd never have remembered it anyways, But, I thank you. I don’t need to know who you are to know a spirit ran through you on this day.You gave me a brief moment of fond memories of a mother I miss dearly. Unclouded by resentment all because of that smell. You gave me forgotten memories I buried deep. It made me smile to see you slide over to me my seat as that bus drove away.
I hope you looked at what those bills had written on them before sliding them in your pocket.
Whatever drug to ease the pain, Food to gather your strength, or necessity you crave I hope whatever they went to helped ease some part of your life & they travel far & wide putting a smile on any sad faces with the words of love I wrote across that dead president's face.
Please Just Walk Away
The question you ask breaks my heart. I'm silently questioning Why do I always answer the phone? Once again, You have no where to go, no home. I hold you tight you’ll be okay. I will keep you safe. Knowing you will tell me to go away in just a few days? When that liquid flows down your throat & your anger starts to rise up to slap me in the face. Your lips scream out to me that I ain’t shit. I have heard the words so many time. I’m sorry. I should just stick to goodbye when you act this way. But, don't have the heart.
Please Block me, walk away, or change.My heart can't take anymore of this pain. You tell me I inspire you to be different, I inspire your change and to be this better person that Ive helped you see who you want to be. Yet, this is how you treat me? You’ve never cared about me, or my life, and job. I’ve gave you a home, clean clothes, and safety, I’ve protected you when you were viewed as hated. Yet, You treat me as if I’ve been nothing,
Actually...
You’ve treated me worse.
Alone
The question no matter the ears it falls upon is always the same. Who am I to you?
I listened to a poem today that said it so perfect I’m the girl everyone loves but no one is in love with, and the loneliness kills me.
As I sit alone debating the knock on the door with the hope of no sleep, the regret of going to someone’s house because of the fear of no sleep, and in betweens of me sitting here. Me sitting alone still with no sleep.
I continue to sip my beer wondering if I am always going to be that girl?
That girl everyone loves but no one truly falls in love with. If that’s who I am now.
and forever will be.
I continue to drink wishing it’d please put me to sleep, but it just makes me have to pee.
It's Time
It’s time to let go of the what if and could have beens.
It’s time to grow up and be the woman I know I can be.
It’s time to be smart about the next step I am going to make.
It’s time to clear my head alone.
It’s time to see who really wants to be apart of my life.
Who just wants to use me and just party with me.
It’s time to let that party die.
It’s time to shine with the life I deserve to live.
So it’s time to show myself that I am stronger than the pain of what ifs and what could’ve beens.
I'm fine
Looking through the darkness with such hallow eyes.
Mind breaking into a million pieces.
Behind white lies of “I’m fine.”
The sip of anything to finally make me go blind.
So I can finally feel okay with saying good bye.
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Who am I to You
I sit and watch you stare at lines move up and down.
Up and down on a computer screen as my eye lids grow heavy.
With so many questions swirling through my head and the one question still remains.
The question that’s always been there from the beginning. Who am I to you?
I watch the productivity and desire to do better flow through your body when I’m am near. I watch your closed door of silent secrets when I am not.
There are so many moments that can never be forgotten locked in my memories from days spent with you and me and no one else.
Like today…. I don’t want it to end but know it has to because I have to be responsible for me and not you. I have to be strong and do what I know is best for my life.
The temptation of running away and starting new with you lays heavy on my heart as I close my eyes to sleep your face still spinning through my head and your voice playing beautiful music in my ears.
I’ve grown to block it out over the years because I believed you had forgotten.
But, the feelings and the slightest touches show me different. The soft words of “I could never be good enough for a woman like you so I distanced myself.” But you kept me close without my knowledge.
My love for you has never left, the judge less, fearless love I have for you is still here.
But the question still remains...
Who am I to you?
The Path I take
Where is this path taking me?
As my feet leave solid prints in the dirt.
Toes gripping the ground, holding on for dear life;
Hoping to save the world but losing myself in the muddy sand.
The waves washing away every step I make….
Am I am least making a difference within the wake?